『STAR™』

If i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]
maybe i'm just the other kind of girl. but when i say im going to call yu, i usually DO call you. hahaha

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]
this is true, sometimes. sometimes i just want to be alone, and if you fllow me, i'll kick your ass

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]
if i wanted to kiss you, i would've grabbed you and kissed you already. if i stare at your mouth, you probably have smething stuck inbetween your teeth! hahah

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]
when i do this, it means: DON'T YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME.

When i start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]
i'm a very violent girl, i usually start every other sentence off with the f-word

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong ]
and i'll porbably reply with "nothing" if it's none of your business

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]
don't stare at me, it makes me uncmfortable

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]
if you do this, i'll yell RAPE

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me im beautiful ]
don't lie to me, tell me the truth.

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]
ew. no. i'm tired, and i just want to sleep. haha

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]
i'm not a tease -__-x

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]
if we're on AIM and i don't answer, no i'm not talking to another guy. i'm actually busy doing homework. school is always first for me. if i don't answer on the phone, something's probably wrong, or i'm talking to my family. goshh, don't be so pessimistic When i look at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ] only when i don't believe you, or if i've just heard some rumor you were cheating :P

When i say that i like you
[ I REALLY DO MORE THAN U COULD UNDERSTAND ]****
umm, if i like you, i like you. i also like my cousin, and my friends, and i like my teachers also. s des this mean i'm going to date my teachers too?! fucking retarded.

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]
don't i have long nails, you could scratch yourself and bleed to death.

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]
ask if i'm okay....? lmao

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
don't go blabbing it out to all your friends.

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]
i don't look into eyes.

When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]
I AM. AND I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU

When you break my heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]
OMG. heart attack. HAHAHA

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]
um, when it's over, IT IS OVER. move on. haha

Posted in Random

I really have to say, you're the best thing that's actually happened to me. That's the truth, and I'd only tell you the truth. You know I'd never lie to you. Ever since I met you, my life has been better. In the short time that we were together, I felt good. I didn't have to pretend to be anyone else, or put up a front around you. But now, because of the circumstances that you're under, we're unable to talk. I feel empty inside, and it hurts. I really miss you, and I really hope you'll come back. I know you have family issues right now, and I really hope everything gets better.
Please, don't forget about all the good times we had together. Let's just hope that in the future, we'll be able to talk and meet again. I'll be looking forward to that day. Just remember, you have half of my heart, with the other half hanging on my sleeve. Even though we have no form of communication right now, I just hope that you'll never forget me. I will never ever in a million years forget you. 사랑해요 ~ ♥

Posted in Life

I noticed something today.
Something disturbing, yet I know why it's like the way it is. I'm nothing without my friends. It may seem farfetched, but i'm serious. Without my friends, I wouldn't be anything.

I'd be the girl you see wandering around, with no one to be with.
I NEED MY FRIENDS. I may seem annoying clinging onto you guys, but I need to be around someone. I feel weird if I'm alone. That's why I even befriended this weirdo boy in photo. haha

I mean it might just be a little phase that I'll get over, because I know that I wasn't like this in middle school. But then, if you look back in my life. I always needed my friends. It might be a phobia. I don't know, but I can't stand being by myself. Just as a heads up for the people who befriend me in the future, don't leave me by myself in a crowd full of people I don't know. Unless you want to see a guy dead, or illegal things happen.

But you have to know, I'll always be there when you need me.
So where the fuck are you when I need you the most?

Posted in Rants

I've realized if I actually was able to chill with the people that do want to chill with me then my social life would be so fucking busy. Too bad I'm cooped up in a nice house with every material item I kinda didn't want but what others would kill for.

I spend my friday nights and saturday nights on the computer... sad but true. I really need to be less shy. I'm not as shy as I used to be but I still need to be more outgoing. I need to talk to some more people, and make some new friends. My old friends are seriously drifting, and it's sad. I really want them all back.

Posted in Life